Aching Inside

I feel like I have the iron mask
Of being tough and stern among my peers
But deep inside I am aching
And alone inside is a lonely heart

I still miss the company of my husband
Who left me not for another woman but God
He answered God's call from above
I still search for the sign of his presence around

My husband I hope it is not too late to tell you
That I do love you with all my heart
Though I still fancy that other men are attracted to me
You can be assured that you still have my devotion

Please guide me in all the investments I am making
It is from your provision to us
Let me make it with your son till my turn comes
In this cold and indifferent world around